Baloons

22550141_10155889004934743_391576311092529585_oLet them fly away. Set them free and thrive. Keep the illusions that will bring you to the truthfulness and all the rest.. let’s leave aside. Our stubbornness, our momentary weakness, our falsehood in a way. What is it with this world, you come… you live for a second and it paints you with the colors of its rays. We live inside reflections, where is the home within ourselves? We spare everything in split second, we can lose everything and love along the way.

Who knew this time around, we come as if we are balloons. Bubbles, little bubbles, of the crowd. While you are outside with everyone, you always live a lie. Stay alone and learn the lesson, the crowds will have to wait a while.
And since you tend to dive with your head straight inside the clouds, remember heartbreak is the lesson of the faintest, rise above the motives and the trial. When everything just seems unreal, perhaps you entered a labyrinth you have to navigate. When all is dimmed, look for the first you knew and not the second, for he is the only one who keeps you, dear.

Congratulations, heart.
If you understand the instructions, you may find your way home.

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The Tender Heart…

Beware of the Tender Heart.

…of the sparks it sends out when it’s open.

Beware of moving stars.

When Love enters,

you and I are helpless.

You will finally be free of You.

I will be finally free of Me.

We will be emptied like old bottles,

we will be smashed like the

papers of the writer.

Our beautiful disaster

will play a small role in the Rising Sun…

One sun ray will escape the glory of the Heavens

and enter someone else’s heart.

The steel will become tender.

 

If you had any idea what a Soul endures through Eternity, you would be forever humbled.

Awake. Compassionate. Infused with life, with fire.

Once again, a stranger saved me and reminded me of every chance I got.

 

My simple words may not be enough for you right now, I know.

While you are chasing this and that in this big wild world outside.

That wild world has poisoned your heart, my beloved.

My promise through the ages was to shake up your castle of security.

 

Release your heart.

I will meet you on the other side when we are both washed clean…

On the shore.

 

I had a dream… I dreamed my life is over.

All bitterness – forgotten.

There was a Soul standing on the shore…

 

& some music…. 

 

 

9999: The Finishing Line of Insecurity

people-2569545_1920I didn’t really know

if what I do will die or grow.

I only felt a gentle touch of higher realms,

much higher than the ones I know.

Then my insecurity became my base

and it turned it was,

a better base than those

who build their place regardless

regardless

of their Souls.

I kept and kept on going,

till I reached the summit.

I would climb

both with my feet and with my hands

only so that

I could

raise my Spirit.

All the obstacles ahead were blinking lights,

some of the writers that I met

(shhh, don’t tell!)

were all somehow

avoiding life…

 

But one day recently

I heard a voice that said:

 

Don’t you worry, my beloved

Nothing real in you could ever die.

 

All is transient, don’t worry.

 

Let

Light

radiate

with

every

breath. 

 

 

 

As Above, So Below

“As above,

so below,

as within,

so without,

as the universe,

so the soul…”

Hermes Trismegistus

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Thoughts, Truth & Nuances of Truth

 

More than

a

1000

words

for those who seek

Depth. 

 

You may want to sit comfortably.

Words are Soul-food,

not Fast-food 🙂

 

No thought that was ever thought in this world has been lost. There are thoughts that we cannot bend enough to fit through language. They cannot be communicated. Language is a system, like any system – it also provides a limited individual experience if one relies heavily on what one hears in a conversation.

A Question of Essence

It’s a sign of inadequacy and absorption with what the world thinks and not what my Essence is, when I rely on someone to tell me and uncover a truth for me. Sadly, I’ve done this. Until I began to ask myself and not just anyone the essential questions. I stared to look for answers in living, not in mind-joggling discussions.

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Wouldn’t everyone hold a possibility for your own upbringing?

Almost everyone can become a reason, a condition for a realization.

And you can be the condition to someone else’ realization.

God speaks through everyone, no to everyone.

Many claim God speaks to them.

But how did you know it’s God that speaks to you and not a guide? Or a teacher? Or a Spirit? How did he sound? Don’t you think his voice would be a little different then all the voices you have ever heard?

They dislike these questions, remember it. They may say: “I just know” but there are many fake “I just know”-s these days. To the one who knows, a fake “I know” will spark at least 1% of healthy doubt. There is a little lesson on humbleness to many gurus and enlightened ones here.

Every page on the internet is enlightened.

Is that real though or is it just the right words?

If God had spoken to you directly and blessed you in such a profound way for eternity, would you go all out and shout it from a microphone on a stage? Would you like to be scattered or would you be more composed than ever?

Would you be forever humbled, forever astounded with his grace? What good will it do to others to hear that? Would it lead them or confuse them? Would it matter now? Does it mean you have to “lead” others? Now, that you know there is only One true leader, that there are no heroes, no saints even.

There’s only One that is Holy.

So, who in this world would have that grace and that vastness to call themselves or to be called Holy?

Now…

We will never ever have the complete picture through language. Remember that. 

Now I realize, that is my task, not the task of language or people to keep the connection with the Divine. I ought to do my work well if I want to graduate and fulfill my tasks in this lifetime, withstand the challenges and let go of past residue that comes to live, simply because it’s known to me.

Words are Alive.

Clean up your words.

Clean them very, very well, clean them with your heart, use your mind in the right direction, make him a good server, and devote everything in your life to three most spectacular driving forces – Love, Truth, and Wisdom. 

So, endless questioning stops here. (Oops, daily chatter just became obsolete! One who rose in love with the beauty of Silence would rarely be interested in 1 hour of noise.)

This is why truths are not transferred through language in full. The spiritual world knows and prefers Silence. Thoughts translate from Silence to Sound, to Waves, to …(you choose what else) & they create, build, manifest. Thoughts are connectors. 

Now, beware how many people are locked in their castle of thoughts. Oh, goodness. I remember a person who couldn’t stand quiet or still for 2 hours on a Sunday.  

Step One on the Spiritual path is – clean your language and be mindful of your words, right? Stay silent as much as you can.

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Children know this.

They often say: “You talk too much” and go out there and play as they find the chatter uninteresting.

So, we have to now rise to their standard which is often way higher than ours in terms of purity. To a child – what is, is. They don’t analyze constantly and they don’t understand linear perceptions. What is that – “yesterday, today, tomorrow’. There’s Now, they don’t get it and we force them to learn it and unlearn what we now try to re-learn.

Nuances of Truth

There can be only nuances of a truth, leads and signs and no matter how much we communicate. Truths are to be experienced. Every thought (and everything) are there in their potential state until they are brought into existence and called to action.

Thoughts are actions

Many don’t realize that a single thought can help someone or hurt them, right? Do I even have the right to think negatively about anyone for that matter? Or, do I have the responsibility to help them through the right thought? So many questions arise of that, right?

They are all connected to responsibility and directing our energy in a better way.

This is the responsibility of not living with our hands in the sand, finally admitting that reality is way more than it seems to our 5 limited senses. Our misconception about it does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.

“If I can’t see it, I don’t believe it.” – You’ve heard this somewhere along your way, I’m sure.

Our misconception about what is manifested and what is not does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.

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This is the responsibility of not living with our hands in the sand, finally admitting that reality is way more than it seems to our limited 5 senses. Our misconception about it does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.

Thoughts are equal to actions and the separation of thoughts from hard matter is an illusion, that used to work as a protective shield. What happens if you suddenly think of something and it materializes right in front of you?

What if you still have deeply embedded fears and they materialize as well? Now it makes sense why the spiritual path can be dangerous, huh? On a side note, I remember

On a side note, I remember reading somewhere:

Don’t meditate before you’ve cleaned and realigned your energetic system completely. That includes cleaning all physical organs as a must. 

That means aligning our energy system with what we are preparing for. No one is allowed to live in a better state of Heart, Soul, Mind, and Spirit without certain purity and certain purification processes. Let me tell you, some of those can be quite a ride! It’s not all sun fields, white clouds and happy tunes!

It can be harsh, devastating, it could feel as if you whole everything is ending. It’s a narrow, hard path to walk and there’s no one around to comfort you in any way. This is how the connection to the divine strengthens. When you give in completely.

It can bring great rewards, but if you are looking for those, you will be disappointed. You may never see rewards in any visible way. You can experience, however, great, out-of-this world hurt and pain in order to know the truth. So, prepare yourself well if you are looking for depth.

….

As a child, I remember watching certain objects on the TV, wondering why they don’t appear right in front of me, they are locked in a box but when I reach for them I hit the box, not the object. That is a small memory of “a place” (it’s not a place) where that does happen. Where what you think becomes reality. (Depicted in the Dr. Strange, as far as I remember)

If one day, this world sees this and practices it, what would all the big, heavy manufacturers do with their time, I wonder? If we realize there are much higher realms of reality to reach, then oh, heavenly goodness.

Lot’s of the so-called important works of anything would disintegrate. People would have more time to devote to working on themselves, to spirituality, arts, meditation, prayer and creating things that matter. 

Now, after this text – you decide where Society is now and how much it would take to reach that huge leap. Maybe not so much, maybe you and I already know of the great, incredible work ahead of us and are ready to be responsible, to reach that state of existence.

The essence is always in the gaps that occur in our linear perceptions, the Essence of Life is in the existence we have overlooked.

Be Blessed,

Svetlina

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Colors

– Colors will enter because
you recognized the beauty of the blank canvas.

– But I wish to remain a blank canvas.
I don’t really need much of anything else anymore.

I have you – we are together,
in different spaces and times,
we are always together, my beloved.

I don’t need colors, let me be pure,
I am a white space.

I am beyond the colors,
I’ve lived in the Light
and swam through the darkness.
I am
beyond all poles of understanding.

Remember me this way.
Colored, on the outside.
Remember me this way
if you still haven’t seen
my colors on the inside.

But if you have,
then we can be friends.
Not friends for a couple of years.

Friends for Eternity,
friends even when I exit this place
and you remember my heart.

So, now…
You have this.

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The first time I conquered
the deepest, darkest fears
and put them in the colors.

Remember me,
beyond form and matter,
I am a feeling.

A whim
of distant times,
of ancient times
when life was flowing,
when life was not a mascarade.

Love was pure to the core.
We were fire from the core.
We were liquid,
beauty had no form.
I remember.

I remember so well.

A thousand lives ago.
Until we became everything –
friends, lovers, warriors,
beautiful and broken…
after every single round.

We were mistreated, abandoned,
loved and forgotten.
In the darkest night,
nobody of our friends was around.

We flew through galaxies,
planets and stars,
our Love knew no limits.

Do you know how sad it is for me
to see you now?

The one who gave everything,
fell from all his grace, all his glory.

The one I loved became dark.

I hope, my friend
you start to repair yourself
and remember yourself.

I have never been your enemy
even when we were enemies.

I have always been and forever will be free.

One day,
when you decide to dismantle your prison,
you will know it too.
All colors will gather,
your Essence will begin to emerge.

Sleep tight, for now.
One day I will come back to ask again.

Are ready now, my eternal, beloved friend…

Svetlina Trifonova

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“The Secret Wisdom of All Concealed Things” – A Book of Love

I’m not a very good collector of quotes. I either remember them and they fulfill their task in a certain time frame or simply let go of quotes.

There are those rare books, however, I could re-read many times, as I realize every reading is lively, different and liberating. The key word is Liberation from the chains of programmed thinking.

Always, always, always return within and never seek outside.

The Third Commandment of Ava Torot: Cleanse Yourself!

No one is able to cleanse themselves by means of rules and methods. Cleanse yourself through a Great Longing for God. If you want to stain yourself, then live for the sake of the world. Yet if you want to cleanse yourself, then you need not just longing, my friend, but a Great Longing for God. Only such Great Longing is able to throw away the world – the non-existing. The world and the worlds, whichever they are, do not exist, my friend. In vain have you directed your glance towards them. There exists only God. Cleanse yourself through the Great Longing for God!

The quote is from “AVA TOROT – The Secret Wisdom of All Concealed Things by Eleazar Harash”.

 

 

Possessions are Illusions

No man chooses evil because it is evil; he only mistakes it for happiness, the good he seeks. – Mary Wollstonecraft

A good part of my time here was spent by me, being an involuntary witness of people trying to decide between who owns what. If you sense just a little bit of resentment in this introduction, you won’t be far from the truth. Part of my special program was to be put in a situation where there is contradicting beliefs and a generous amount of paradoxes.

If you sense just a little bit of resentment in this introduction, you won’t be far from the truth. Part of my special program was to be put in a situation where there is contradicting beliefs and a generous amount of paradoxes.

Last night, I planned to rise up early out of bed, go to the gazebo in my yard, start on the 5 000 word translation,  translate also a poem, while I snuggle with little Avalokita from time to time (a newborn kittie that holds the power of a real tiger).

Then relatives stopped by the house and as you can guess, my plans were quickly dismantled. The elders are battling for an old house that no one currently lives in. I embraced the sudden change of plans and poured some coffee. I was hoping to see a heart-to-heart between my old grandmother and her brother.

I was hoping to see a heart-to-heart between my old grandmother and her brother. Because no matter how long I live on planet Earth, I hold idealistic expectations and they have been restored somehow after every single time reality kicked in and kicked them out.

My wonderful intention to start on a high note quickly got lost in translation. They are battling about an old house that no one lives in. I embraced the sudden change, poured coffee and was hoping to see a heart-to-heart of my old grandmother and her brother.

They started arguing for the ownership of an old house that no one lives in. I had dreamed about it a couple of days ago. I embraced the sudden change, poured us some coffee and was hoping … to see a heart-to-heart of my old grandmother and her brother. Little did I know, within minutes, they would begin a heated discussion of private properties that they haven’t dealt with for the last twenty years.

My grandma’s opponent didn’t care that much.

These are my last days anyway, he said.

There is no such conflict in my mind.

When my friend got a dog the other day, she sent me a photo and the simple message saying: “She’s all Mine.” She seemed relieved somehow. But what do you need to be relieved of? What?

Your cat or dog is not your cat or dog, my friend. Our house is not your house, your shoes are not your shoes, even if you paid for them with the last cent you own.  They are simply – a house, a pair of shoes.

The cat and the dog are your tiny little brothers and sisters, they carry life like any other living Soul here. You cannot possess a living being. You cannot possesses a material good either even if it says so on the paper.

People waste their precious energy all the time trying to solve material issues that don’t actually exist. I don’t have to imagine John Lennon’s verses to be true. I understand they are. Society forgot they are true. So, instead of dealing what our Souls need, we are dealing with things that don’t really exist.

Like ownership. Private properties are a complete joke if you ask me. So, instead of dealing with the Soul, Spirit & all that is Divine and inherently true, we are dealing with things that aren’t real, that doesn’t leave a single value in our consciousness.

So our consciousness becomes mostly occupied by material wants and needs. This is the shortest path that spirals down is losing yourself into the illusions which create the world of possessions, of inquiring and wanting more of everything.

Solitude? Absence? What lack is it that desperately needs Her? You are a caretaker and she’s your companion. But she’s not yours. There is no ownership here.

Our bodies are not our bodies! Why do we suffer when someone lets go of their body and wishes to go home? Is it ignorance, or selfishness, or illusions that keep is in this loop of misunderstanding.

I realize I’m not sharing a profound truth here. It’s all been written, it’s all been discovered, so at best – this is just a reminder to return to feeling lighter.

We have been heavily overloaded with so many possessions. Just take a look at the huge sales, the noisy world out there, the competition, the goal-setting where the money comes first and the man comes nowhere. Such a karmic race.

Why are we so desperate into acquiring anything? Why is it so scary to live without possessions? It’s not. It’s liberating, my friend! You suffer less, enjoy more and find bliss easily because bliss is not a long way there, it’s over here.

Once you stop paying attention to the wrong things…this happens.

I know we need a roof over our heads, clothes on our back, water, food. I’m not saying we should live without our basic needs. I’m not urging a hippie movement either. But do you realize how many are frantically over-satisfying their “needs”?

I’m not saying we should live without our basic needs. There is a slight difference between making use of all these things and clinging to them, be ready to fight with the fellow man, with those that need a kind word rather than being pushed aside for a property or a comfortable position.

I am positive you understand this. Any person with consciousness would understand. And yet, so many of us fall into the wrong pattern, we accept it as if it’s the outside world that governs us and we obey, we become slaves of what others believe.

But if their beliefs were so good, wouldn’t they be in a better place? Wouldn’t they be lighter, fulfilled and grateful?

When we leave this place, we will leave everything behind and we should not feel sorry for a single piece of possessions. 

Take care of your words, feelings, your heart, your mind, and Soul. And if you accomplish all of this, everything else will fall into place, but you won’t have lost your dignity and value over a piece of anything.

It saddens me to see that the house ends up owning the owner. Can’t you see, we are just transiting? The vastness of this Universe awaits us and we need to be gentle if we want to end up in a loving place.

Leave all violence behind.

The violence of acquiring anything is too, a type of violence.

If you receive a gift, then receive it with dignity, grace and with the desire to give back, to share, to love.

We never gain anything, we never lose anything. Nothing was ours in the first place. How can we lose or gain then? It’s true even with break-ups. What are you suffering from? It didn’t happen the way you planned and projected it. And our plans will fail every single time.

There is just one force in this world, in all words.

It gives and it takes away.

Why not be thankful for it?

Why do we deliberately lose the freedom we’ve been given?

Who do we complain to about our suffering but ourselves? 

Why do we forget our real home, our real origin?

Why do we teach kids how to be successful and we never mention there is a Soul,

a journey they are on?

Be happy when you lose, my friend.

I know I am celebrating every single time I lose.

I used to cry over failures until I finally understood,

I am given a much higher direction and what is perceived as a loss by someone, is a great, great gift to my Soul. 

It’s a precious gift: to know how to “lose’ is to know how to find your way back Home.

  • AVALOKITA means the one who sees clearly, with the eyes of Truth, with compassion

Much Love, 
Svetlina

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I Am What I Am

swan-2077219_1920There is no point in wanting to be anywhere I’m not.  If I haven’t arrived there yet, how could I ask my Soul to be there? If I haven’t been fully absorbed by my Soul, how can I ask to be complete? If I still debate, how can I feel worthy of knowing anything at all? 

Simplicity.

My task is to walk the Path I’m on and to warm as many hearts as I can along the way. But I don’t have to worry about how I will do it. See, we become so worried about every single thing! What is my purpose, when will I find it, does it count, can I make a living doing what I love, can I be who I really am? Questions that only lead to more questions. Worrying will never get me the right answer. I just have to continue to the Highest Path I’ve been given.

I just have to continue to the Highest Path I’ve been given.

Stop questioning and you will begin to see, hear and know all the answers you need. I tell you from experience  – worrying will never get me the right answer. You will never settle within if you worry your mind. What do you have to do? What do I have to do?

I just have to continue to the Highest Path I’ve been given.

Those who aren’t on it yet, ought to step in and own it. Those who are further along the way ought to assist. Those who still don’t know it exists will know it by a divine coincidence, by a letter, a book, a person, a song or whichever hidden way talks to them.

That is all. That means choosing to suffer deliberately rather involuntarily and dismantle all that is not real. Everything that is not real is destroyed in our century. That is not real. So if you are living realness already, you have nothing to worry about. But let me share for the purpose of truthfulness and openness – very few of us are living it. I knew it as a child, I knew what to expect and yet that didn’t save me from disappointments.

Wisdom.

At first sight, what is not real … it bubbles and bubbles, and bubbles. It’s noisy. It’s all out there. It’s all in our face. Like a really annoying bug that just won’t let you be on your own. At the second sight, it becomes grand and glorious, it becomes desired. At the third sight, it collapses and turns to ashes.

Anything that is unwilling to transform into a higher form of existence is lost. Anyone unwilling to learn and recognize how much he doesn’t know becomes blind in this reality. He suffers, but he suffers without any sense, without any liberation, without any meaning to it.

What happens next?

The majority of the population is terrified, of course at the seeming collapse of everything it identified with and claims it did not expect it. Tragedies are written and when it all subsides, we become blanks slates again.

However, with all those tragedies, there is a tiny handful of beings that feels finally relieved. They dreaded living in fakeness in the first place, so they prefer the desert rather than the crowded noisiness in the tower of fakeness.

Don’t make a mistake (a mistake is a missed-take) thinking you or me can get anywhere by stumbling here and there. No, it takes great devotion. Great devotion. You cannot get there by accident. What is done by accident is what repeats itself, imprints itself, it is what has been haunting you all this time in the back of every thought, every step, every action that you take.

There are plenty of stone hearts on the chest of success, have you noticed? Plenty of people going about their day as if their tasks are of great importance. They make the small task seem grand and important. That is said from my Self to myself, I hope you understand it well. However, I’m glad to share it, as it applies to all these days.

There are plenty of stone hearts out there, have you noticed? Plenty of people going about their day as if their tasks matter. They make the small task seem grand and important.

They aren’t. What do you think? Could anything sacred live inside a stone heart? Yes, it can.

Coming Back

Yes, it can. Even stone hearts keep an imprint of their creator a shallow memory of something they try to go back to through violence. Of course, they never come back to it, because violence never leads there. Even the ones who have completely abandoned themselves and let themselves become dark clouds have the potential.

These days, my Soul comes to me more often and more often, it embraces me and everything feels different. Even the most estranged person in this world that has lost complete memory of the fine world above matter, has felt, even for a split second incredible lightness.

Then his memory failed and he continued struggling with himself. There is no point in the struggle. There are plenty of people that struggle and struggle, and suffer, and suffer some more, convincing themselves this is the way. There is the point, however – the endless attempt to reconnect, to be One with Spirit, One with Everything.

Since there is so much darkness, so much residue of mistakes here, it comes with no surprise, we are taught, from the beginning of our life that suffering is acceptable, even desirable. Yes, growth requires suffering sometimes. But why nobody of these lovely teachers around you, teaches you the alchemy of turning suffering into gold?

It’s artistry.

Transform what is unbearable and harsh to you. The golden ticket there is very simple. Remember that suffering can never ever touch a part of you that is real! That is the most special knowledge you can ask yourself to know. What is not real is hurt, stripped open, cut to the deepest, in order for our Essence to grow. Could our Essence grow without it?

Maybe. Maybe.

Think well about your greatest suffering. Befriend it, face it, know it, talk to it! Bless it, love it, be gracious with it. Your suffering will love your love about it. It will become bearable, smaller, it will become beautiful and it will start giving fruits.

Never let single words of doubt interfere if you already know this is the truthful path.

Don’t be fooled by conversations. Most conversations are dead anyway. Don’t be fooled by good graces. Don’t be trapped into complexity. Let those that decided to bow to their minds, intellect, and specialness, work with their mind and suffer until they transcend it.

Let it slip away.

Such a noisy fellow. Such a noisy little friend. It’s always there, it whispers, it haunts, it loves to argue day and night. It loves to write its own stories.
It also loves, loves, loves to jump up and down, to be inconsistent. It waits for a single moment when you don’t pay attention to what’s real and it creates a distorted reality.

A reality you ought to live in and feel trapped in. A reality we suffer in. A reality where we have to fight, struggle, bite and be less than what we really are. Do you have any idea how many kids in this world, how many grown-ups feel as if they are a mistake?

Do you know how many continue to sense throughout their life that is somehow not allowed to be?

Transforming what’s unbearable, and harsh to us into the most beautiful, the highest, sending it above all Darkness & all Light, above Living, Dying or Idly standing still. Send it there.

Listen, Reality is a lot more. It’s more than a shadow of existence. Wouldn’t it be great if we, as imperfect, as we feel we are, allow ourselves to grow from the shadow into the forest? The forest of the great Unknown.

There is a point in the endless attempt to reconnect, to be One with Spirit, One with Everything. Why did we separate ourselves in the first place?

The illusion of being Alone

Don’t we know already you cannot abandon your Creator without feeling your existence unreal and shallow? You can’t turn your shoulder on the one that blessed you, that pushed you into being here and wish to receive his gifts.

What could you expect from this? Suffering, and suffering, and suffering. Why? Because you aren’t as loving as the Love you came from. Although, we are beyond Love, actually. Till you finally get rid of it, for the greater good, not for the selfish good. Not because you dislike it. Till you learn not to pity yourself, not to feel sorry about anything that ever happened, not to look down, seeing all your impurities and thinking they are the ones that own you. Although, we are beyond Love, actually.

How long, how long…

As long as it takes. Suffering will be till you finally get rid of it, for the greater good, not for the selfish good. Not because you dislike it. Till you learn not to pity yourself, not to feel sorry about anything that ever happened, not to look down, seeing all your impurities and thinking they are the ones that own you.

You own them.

They found an owner and he is the one who is in charge. So, why aren’t you taking that charge? Why do you think you even need Incredible Will to do it? You don’t. You need all-absorbing, all-great, all-flawless Love. No other being can bring you that, I hope you realize it. You can’t do it by yourself either. You have to be immersed in something which is utterly different, it’s hidden. Love so deep and so wide that it cannot help but put anything aside. It will love it all. All of you, all of them, all of the duality, all of this endless game.

Rest in Love

A Love so deep, so wide and so pure that it cannot help but put anything aside. It will love it all. All of you, all of them, all of the duality, all of this endless game. It’s always the same. It has always been the same since the dawn of time. But I have a deep feeling, a deep memory about a different time. A time when it was all pure, all honest, all divine! The greatest secret is that time still exist. It exists because it’s not time. It cannot be found in the time.

The greatest secret is that time still exist. It exists because it’s not time. It cannot be found in the time.

It is much greater.

Whatever happens, trust in the one that you came from. Don’t wait around for the next life, the next possible choice, the next.. something. No. It will be the same or worse if you let your way be led by inertia and fear of being alone. It’s up to you now. That deep trust will save you. That deep breath will teach you. That sacred love will turn everything upside down and you will love it, trust me.

You will see your life collapse, your old skin will be ripped apart and… You will love it. You will even love how hard it is! You will not miss a single small-minded attempt to fit in. Or be good. Or be bad. Or be something. You will not need to be anything. You are already everything.

The entire system of this world is flawed and yet, it’s perfect as you begin to open up your eyes and really see. Don’t you see now why people act this way, why they become puppets of their fears, why they are so afraid?

Why they are so afraid, so hungry, so thirsty? Why they are never satisfied, never thankful, never blissful. Where do you think people live? Do see them live in that sacred space? If they found that sacred space within, would they ever want to return to this insane reality of theirs? Where it’s okay to fight, okay to be violent, okay to hurt, okay to … fill in the blanks, for I’m done.

If they found that sacred space within, would they ever want to return to this insane reality of theirs?

It would feel like a horror.

Would they still love violence or feel appalled by it?

What kind of space is where it’s okay to fight, okay to be violent, okay to hurt, okay to … fill in the blanks, for I’m done.

I’ve seen enough and I’ve heard enough people saying “it’s human nature’. It’s not. What do we even think we know about the nature of humanity?

We lost it! That’s the reality.

The human lost its real nature and he is so discouraged in getting it back. No pub would ever solve his emptiness. No drug will ever fill the voids where love was meant to be. And every new lover will only increase his loneliness and fears.

Turning Around

Nothing will make up for the greatest loss of a man. Nothing. There is only the wilderness, the love for freedom, the deep desire to liberate oneself from the terrors of living in black and white, in wrongs and rights that can truly, honestly pull him out of this shell of terror.

There is only the wilderness, the love for freedom, the deep desire to liberate oneself from the terrors of living in black and white, in wrongs and rights that can truly, honestly pull him out of this shell of terror.

How many real laughs have you heard? Have you thought about it? Try to tune in and really hear the laughs of people. They are violent, they are desperate and sad.

Have you thought about this?

Try to tune in and really hear from within the laughs of people. Can you sense how much is being hidden by these laughs?

I am what I am. You are what you are.

But, please don’t ever tell me it’s in the human nature. There is a great plan. Know it in your heart and you will know there is a blessing that we sacrifice by living this way.

There is a great, master plan. It’s more than all the amusements in this world.

Know it in your heart… and you will know there is a blessing that we sacrificed along the way.

Do you want us to return it?

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Inside, We’re Endless |Sharing The Light of My Soul

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      As I was walking home that Sunday evening, I felt as if the Earth beneath my feet is nothing but a tiny round particle and I am a giant overlooking at the moon, where other tiny giants like me were walking, directing their heads down the Earth.

They were also upside down, like me. I felt the Gravity disappear, my body became as light as a feather. I felt my feet lifting off the ground. I remembered about levitation, I remember having done it before. Before what, you may ask. Before this lifetime, before this intersection. Most probably before anything else I can recall about my existence here. 

I remembered the words of Vejinov, (Pavel Vejinov was the first to write Sci-fi stories in Bulgaria that I know of). My memory flashed back to my early years, I was a young girl reading his books. In one of the stories, he wrote about a young girl that flew from the balcony into the starry sky.

Is there a particular reason I’m remembering this now? Just a few days before I take off on the metal wings of a plane to Geneva, trying to open up a new space in my life. I would live in Switzerland for six months, write as much as I can, finally start publishing on svetlina.org and enjoy the silence of the peaceful lake in Neuchâtel. Visit France, since it is so incredibly close, it’s almost a crime if I didn’t.

My, oh my. Why is it that I feel suddenly so comfortable now that I am leaving and I feel so pressured to stay when I’m here? What is it with this consciousness of mine, am I seeking an escape or is it just so normal for me to travel anywhere and feel like I’ve always been there within days. Does that make me easily adaptable or am I just a young vagabond woman, running away from her lifelines. My obedient and my rebels side were playing a match of control.

My obedient and my rebels side were playing a match of control. Busted! You’re out. I can’t overthink my actions anymore. I’d rather fall down and get back up a thousand times than feel trapped by my cranium and locked in my mind. Is that even a thing? Let’s go back to that writer… That story was never really a whimsical piece of science fiction. I knew it when I read it – it was a very simple truth. A very simple gift. A very normal thing for me to read. The so-called “alien” in his car, the flying girl – all his words were true. It is both scary and liberating when you realize that all of those books, movies, and songs were transmitting something that is a truth somewhere.

His stories were never really a whimsical piece of science fiction or a wild production of his imagination. You cannot think of anything else if it doesn’t exist in some shape, form, realm, somewhere. I knew it when I read it – it was a very simple truth. A very simple gift. A very normal thing for me to read. The so-called “alien” in his car, the flying girl – all his words were true. It is both scary and liberating when you realize that all of those books, movies, and songs were transmitting something that is a truth somewhere.

I knew it when I read it, it was a very simple truth. A very simple ability of ours. A very normal thing for me to read. We can fly. The so-called “alien” in his car, the girl flying over the balcony – it’s all true. Bend your mind, now. It is both scary and liberating when you realize that all of those books, movies, and songs were transmitting something that is a truth somewhere.

He just had the eyes to see it, therefore it was a very real truth to him.

I was and always have been Home.

But I got it wrong. The home I lived in hadn’t felt like home for a long, long time. I knew no other home would ever be a real home. It would always be a comfortable shell, a temporary piece of matter around me for practical purposes. You need a roof over your head, right? Can you really bear living in the vastness of creation without some false sense of protection?

The Self had left, way back in time, and I was the one trying to catch up, to mend it, to unite myself with myself. I was dreaming of mazes and my consciousness was trying to collect itself – jumping between memories, dreams, meetings, traumas and true gaps of Love in between. My greatest friend and my greatest enemy had to gladly shake hands and hug it out among all the controversy. Let’s end the debate.

I felt safe.

I looked around and with all the violence happening somewhere in the world, I felt incredibly safe. I was protected. Someone was watching over me he was smiling at the little progress I had made. Someone had actually guessed my step and in spite of the fact that I would return in just three weeks to my country, my grandmother would pass away three days after and I would feel back as Point Zero again, someone really tapped me on the shoulder.

For I was not afraid of failure, of doing good or bad, of right or wrong, I was thirsty for the Great Mystery of Life.

I could no longer live within my limitations. I am a Spirit! I am a Soul! I’m not a silent dot somewhere on the map of the world. The key to every possibility is within me. The key to end suffering is to open up the borders of my mind.

I had made it out alive – out of the cubicle of the first part of my life, unforgettable years of challenges beyond imagination. I was out of feeling like a victim like there’s no choice like I had to be obedient and listen to all the voices around. It was far from easy, it was a prison, it was universal freedom, it was abandonment, forgiveness, letting go, it was unthinkable, beyond all belief – Love, it was a loss, a deep fog, it was rebellion and now finally – it was Peace.

The little guardian above me wrote my fortunes had done well. 

For 27 years – you will fail, and fail, and fail.

 

What? What do you mean? I will FAIL? And I wished it myself? That makes no sense!

  • Yes, my beloved girl. You will fail repeatedly and you will never ever be satisfied with any of your endeavors. You will fall flat on your knees, knowing every time that you’re limited. You will feel great pain and you will try to remember your true Essence. You will never ever be in love with the world again, for it’s just a simple reflection of my Divinity. You will never ever wish to compete, judge or belittle yourself. You chose to set yourself up for failure and experience what all Human Beings experience but never come out of. I was the one who respected your wish. for your wish, was out of Love for others. You made a choice to enter the Incredible Lightness, the Universal, Divine Love, so I you became Love from the very core of your being. Your Being will open up to receive the Greatest Gifts that were ever known to man, but just a few reach out to receive them. You will help others to recognize Divinity within themselves and stop playing so small. You will know you belong to the great Cosmos and this is your true and only Home. You are not a being of any country, a lover or even a friend. You will understand, this is just the everlasting dance of Life. You will regain Liberty and the Souls you are with will be uplifted by this act. And then, when you know yourself a little better, you will embark on the most incredible journey. Your True Life begins and your False Life ends there. The Written Word will be your sword anywhere you go. You will know your Silence, know your gentleness and you will begin to love every part of your gracious being. You will know with all your mistakes that you are intended to Be. You are and always will be Blessed. 

There I was. On the edge of the Earth, soaked in Cosmic glory, feeling like Gaia is so tiny, finally knowing the human Spirit infinite. I was heading somewhere I’ve always been.

Inside, we’re Endless.

*A note to the reader: Dear reader, failure is never ever about losing your job, a house or a friend. Or even about someone passing away. Failure is never missing a deadline or a promotion. Failure is falling away from the Truth, falling from Grace. Do you know who you are? Did you ever meet yourself along the way of to-do lists today? If you did, I hope you understand my story. All my titles, all my promotions, all my well-thought courses, all my clothes, and vacations failed. They were nothing of value for they were all just minor chords in the Song of my Life. They were out there. They passed through me and didn’t say anything about Who I AM. Your Truth never depends on where you live, where you dine, who you are with, where you are photographed and how much you earned. One day and that day is knocking on our door, nobody will even remember this temporary world of objects. In just century or two, everyone will live in Love beyond all matter. Some already do. I wish there’s more of us.

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