The Healing Path

More and more people open up to what actually happens when they begin clearing their lives. This is an excerpt from a conversation about what happens when we begin to seek purity in our lives. Especially valid for people with addictions or people who have suffered trauma, pain in their lives or have had self-abusive tendencies.  

There is one thing you should know when you want to change your direction and go upwards with everything I mentioned last night.

There is a fight, things don’t go down without a fight, it is how redemption happens. And yet, it is a fight that fuels you with love and compassion after every battle.

And it makes you humble, and truthfully loving. It’s how love reveals. Poetry is nothing compared to it, a love relationship is nothing compared to it. Well, not exactly nothing, but the greater whole is larger.

So, I didn’t mean to make it sound so easy. It isn’t. Because when the clearing starts, the payment for our transgressions accelerates.

Just expect it, and whatever happens, don’t be afraid.

If you suffer intensively, don’t be afraid. Some “old friends” of ours come. It’s like that friend who hands you a glass of wine, saying you will feel better in the morning and yet, you are foggy in the morning.

The invisible false friends come in the forms of thoughts, feelings, habits. But it’s okay.

As long as you take away their power little by little. Now, it was my duty to share this and although it may seem long, I barely even touched the topic.

Make small steps, very small. And when the time comes, take the big leap at once.


The Most Quiet One

old-letters-436501_1920The last one standing in the crowd.

The one who doesn’t like the music oh-so-loud.

The one who wishes, whispers, moves, and changes.

The one who breathes within and rearranges.

The one who gathers the crumbs and feeds the birds by the lake.

The one who never mistrusts or assumes.

The one who lets the bird out of its cage.

The one unafraid to suffer or pay the prices of living so boldly.

The one who hears the bells and climbs all the way up the stairs.

The one who is dancing in silence.

The one who knows you will hurt and he will be there.

The one who will gather you in your arms as if you are leaves.

The one who will transmit through your palms light beams…


I deserved the pain, God.

I deserved every single scratch and bruise, and loss.

I deserved it all.

Now I trust.





22550141_10155889004934743_391576311092529585_oLet them fly away. Set them free and thrive. Keep the illusions that will bring you to the truthfulness and all the rest.. let’s leave aside. Our stubbornness, our momentary weakness, our falsehood in a way. What is it with this world, you come… you live for a second and it paints you with the colors of its rays. We live inside reflections, where is the home within ourselves? We spare everything in split second, we can lose everything and love along the way.

Who knew this time around, we come as if we are balloons. Bubbles, little bubbles, of the crowd. While you are outside with everyone, you always live a lie. Stay alone and learn the lesson, the crowds will have to wait a while.
And since you tend to dive with your head straight inside the clouds, remember heartbreak is the lesson of the faintest, rise above the motives and the trial. When everything just seems unreal, perhaps you entered a labyrinth you have to navigate. When all is dimmed, look for the first you knew and not the second, for he is the only one who keeps you, dear.

Congratulations, heart.
If you understand the instructions, you may find your way home.

The Tender Heart…

Beware of the Tender Heart.

…of the sparks it sends out when it’s open.

Beware of moving stars.

When Love enters,

you and I are helpless.

You will finally be free of You.

I will be finally free of Me.

We will be emptied like old bottles,

we will be smashed like the

papers of the writer.

Our beautiful disaster

will play a small role in the Rising Sun…

One sun ray will escape the glory of the Heavens

and enter someone else’s heart.

The steel will become tender.


If you had any idea what a Soul endures through Eternity, you would be forever humbled.

Awake. Compassionate. Infused with life, with fire.

Once again, a stranger saved me and reminded me of every chance I got.


My simple words may not be enough for you right now, I know.

While you are chasing this and that in this big wild world outside.

That wild world has poisoned your heart, my beloved.

My promise through the ages was to shake up your castle of security.


Release your heart.

I will meet you on the other side when we are both washed clean…

On the shore.


I had a dream… I dreamed my life is over.

All bitterness – forgotten.

There was a Soul standing on the shore…


& some music…. 



9999: The Finishing Line of Insecurity

people-2569545_1920I didn’t really know

if what I do will die or grow.

I only felt a gentle touch of higher realms,

much higher than the ones I know.

Then my insecurity became my base

and it turned it was,

a better base than those

who build their place regardless


of their Souls.

I kept and kept on going,

till I reached the summit.

I would climb

both with my feet and with my hands

only so that

I could

raise my Spirit.

All the obstacles ahead were blinking lights,

some of the writers that I met

(shhh, don’t tell!)

were all somehow

avoiding life…


But one day recently

I heard a voice that said:


Don’t you worry, my beloved

Nothing real in you could ever die.


All is transient, don’t worry.











As Above, So Below

“As above,

so below,

as within,

so without,

as the universe,

so the soul…”

Hermes Trismegistus

Strokes-of-a-Brush, Svetlina Trifonova

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Words are Soul-food,

not Fast-food 🙂


No thought that was ever thought in this world has been lost. There are thoughts that we cannot bend enough to fit through language. They cannot be communicated. Language is a system, like any system – it also provides a limited individual experience if one relies heavily on what one hears in a conversation.

A Question of Essence

It’s a sign of inadequacy and absorption with what the world thinks and not what my Essence is, when I rely on someone to tell me and uncover a truth for me. Sadly, I’ve done this. Until I began to ask myself and not just anyone the essential questions. I stared to look for answers in living, not in mind-joggling discussions.


Wouldn’t everyone hold a possibility for your own upbringing?

Almost everyone can become a reason, a condition for a realization.

And you can be the condition to someone else’ realization.

God speaks through everyone, no to everyone.

Many claim God speaks to them.

But how did you know it’s God that speaks to you and not a guide? Or a teacher? Or a Spirit? How did he sound? Don’t you think his voice would be a little different then all the voices you have ever heard?

They dislike these questions, remember it. They may say: “I just know” but there are many fake “I just know”-s these days. To the one who knows, a fake “I know” will spark at least 1% of healthy doubt. There is a little lesson on humbleness to many gurus and enlightened ones here.

Every page on the internet is enlightened.

Is that real though or is it just the right words?

If God had spoken to you directly and blessed you in such a profound way for eternity, would you go all out and shout it from a microphone on a stage? Would you like to be scattered or would you be more composed than ever?

Would you be forever humbled, forever astounded with his grace? What good will it do to others to hear that? Would it lead them or confuse them? Would it matter now? Does it mean you have to “lead” others? Now, that you know there is only One true leader, that there are no heroes, no saints even.

There’s only One that is Holy.

So, who in this world would have that grace and that vastness to call themselves or to be called Holy?


We will never ever have the complete picture through language. Remember that. 

Now I realize, that is my task, not the task of language or people to keep the connection with the Divine. I ought to do my work well if I want to graduate and fulfill my tasks in this lifetime, withstand the challenges and let go of past residue that comes to live, simply because it’s known to me.

Words are Alive.

Clean up your words.

Clean them very, very well, clean them with your heart, use your mind in the right direction, make him a good server, and devote everything in your life to three most spectacular driving forces – Love, Truth, and Wisdom. 

So, endless questioning stops here. (Oops, daily chatter just became obsolete! One who rose in love with the beauty of Silence would rarely be interested in 1 hour of noise.)

This is why truths are not transferred through language in full. The spiritual world knows and prefers Silence. Thoughts translate from Silence to Sound, to Waves, to …(you choose what else) & they create, build, manifest. Thoughts are connectors. 

Now, beware how many people are locked in their castle of thoughts. Oh, goodness. I remember a person who couldn’t stand quiet or still for 2 hours on a Sunday.  

Step One on the Spiritual path is – clean your language and be mindful of your words, right? Stay silent as much as you can.


Children know this.

They often say: “You talk too much” and go out there and play as they find the chatter uninteresting.

So, we have to now rise to their standard which is often way higher than ours in terms of purity. To a child – what is, is. They don’t analyze constantly and they don’t understand linear perceptions. What is that – “yesterday, today, tomorrow’. There’s Now, they don’t get it and we force them to learn it and unlearn what we now try to re-learn.

Nuances of Truth

There can be only nuances of a truth, leads and signs and no matter how much we communicate. Truths are to be experienced. Every thought (and everything) are there in their potential state until they are brought into existence and called to action.

Thoughts are actions

Many don’t realize that a single thought can help someone or hurt them, right? Do I even have the right to think negatively about anyone for that matter? Or, do I have the responsibility to help them through the right thought? So many questions arise of that, right?

They are all connected to responsibility and directing our energy in a better way.

This is the responsibility of not living with our hands in the sand, finally admitting that reality is way more than it seems to our 5 limited senses. Our misconception about it does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.

“If I can’t see it, I don’t believe it.” – You’ve heard this somewhere along your way, I’m sure.

Our misconception about what is manifested and what is not does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.


This is the responsibility of not living with our hands in the sand, finally admitting that reality is way more than it seems to our limited 5 senses. Our misconception about it does not leave us out of the responsibility to exist in the whole vast, beautiful complexity of Creation.

Thoughts are equal to actions and the separation of thoughts from hard matter is an illusion, that used to work as a protective shield. What happens if you suddenly think of something and it materializes right in front of you?

What if you still have deeply embedded fears and they materialize as well? Now it makes sense why the spiritual path can be dangerous, huh? On a side note, I remember

On a side note, I remember reading somewhere:

Don’t meditate before you’ve cleaned and realigned your energetic system completely. That includes cleaning all physical organs as a must. 

That means aligning our energy system with what we are preparing for. No one is allowed to live in a better state of Heart, Soul, Mind, and Spirit without certain purity and certain purification processes. Let me tell you, some of those can be quite a ride! It’s not all sun fields, white clouds and happy tunes!

It can be harsh, devastating, it could feel as if you whole everything is ending. It’s a narrow, hard path to walk and there’s no one around to comfort you in any way. This is how the connection to the divine strengthens. When you give in completely.

It can bring great rewards, but if you are looking for those, you will be disappointed. You may never see rewards in any visible way. You can experience, however, great, out-of-this world hurt and pain in order to know the truth. So, prepare yourself well if you are looking for depth.


As a child, I remember watching certain objects on the TV, wondering why they don’t appear right in front of me, they are locked in a box but when I reach for them I hit the box, not the object. That is a small memory of “a place” (it’s not a place) where that does happen. Where what you think becomes reality. (Depicted in the Dr. Strange, as far as I remember)

If one day, this world sees this and practices it, what would all the big, heavy manufacturers do with their time, I wonder? If we realize there are much higher realms of reality to reach, then oh, heavenly goodness.

Lot’s of the so-called important works of anything would disintegrate. People would have more time to devote to working on themselves, to spirituality, arts, meditation, prayer and creating things that matter. 

Now, after this text – you decide where Society is now and how much it would take to reach that huge leap. Maybe not so much, maybe you and I already know of the great, incredible work ahead of us and are ready to be responsible, to reach that state of existence.

The essence is always in the gaps that occur in our linear perceptions, the Essence of Life is in the existence we have overlooked.

Be Blessed,






– Colors will enter because
you recognized the beauty of the blank canvas.

– But I wish to remain a blank canvas.
I don’t really need much of anything else anymore.

I have you – we are together,
in different spaces and times,
we are always together, my beloved.

I don’t need colors, let me be pure,
I am a white space.

I am beyond the colors,
I’ve lived in the Light
and swam through the darkness.
I am
beyond all poles of understanding.

Remember me this way.
Colored, on the outside.
Remember me this way
if you still haven’t seen
my colors on the inside.

But if you have,
then we can be friends.
Not friends for a couple of years.

Friends for Eternity,
friends even when I exit this place
and you remember my heart.

So, now…
You have this.


The first time I conquered
the deepest, darkest fears
and put them in the colors.

Remember me,
beyond form and matter,
I am a feeling.

A whim
of distant times,
of ancient times
when life was flowing,
when life was not a mascarade.

Love was pure to the core.
We were fire from the core.
We were liquid,
beauty had no form.
I remember.

I remember so well.

A thousand lives ago.
Until we became everything –
friends, lovers, warriors,
beautiful and broken…
after every single round.

We were mistreated, abandoned,
loved and forgotten.
In the darkest night,
nobody of our friends was around.

We flew through galaxies,
planets and stars,
our Love knew no limits.

Do you know how sad it is for me
to see you now?

The one who gave everything,
fell from all his grace, all his glory.

The one I loved became dark.

I hope, my friend
you start to repair yourself
and remember yourself.

I have never been your enemy
even when we were enemies.

I have always been and forever will be free.

One day,
when you decide to dismantle your prison,
you will know it too.
All colors will gather,
your Essence will begin to emerge.

Sleep tight, for now.
One day I will come back to ask again.

Are ready now, my eternal, beloved friend…

Svetlina Trifonova

Photography by Kristina Likova

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“The Secret Wisdom of All Concealed Things” – A Book of Love

I’m not a very good collector of quotes. I either remember them and they fulfill their task in a certain time frame or simply let go of quotes.

There are those rare books, however, I could re-read many times, as I realize every reading is lively, different and liberating. The key word is Liberation from the chains of programmed thinking.

Always, always, always return within and never seek outside.

The Third Commandment of Ava Torot: Cleanse Yourself!

No one is able to cleanse themselves by means of rules and methods. Cleanse yourself through a Great Longing for God. If you want to stain yourself, then live for the sake of the world. Yet if you want to cleanse yourself, then you need not just longing, my friend, but a Great Longing for God. Only such Great Longing is able to throw away the world – the non-existing. The world and the worlds, whichever they are, do not exist, my friend. In vain have you directed your glance towards them. There exists only God. Cleanse yourself through the Great Longing for God!

The quote is from “AVA TOROT – The Secret Wisdom of All Concealed Things by Eleazar Harash”.



Possessions are Illusions

No man chooses evil because it is evil; he only mistakes it for happiness, the good he seeks. – Mary Wollstonecraft

A good part of my time here was spent by me, being an involuntary witness of people trying to decide between who owns what. If you sense just a little bit of resentment in this introduction, you won’t be far from the truth. Part of my special program was to be put in a situation where there is contradicting beliefs and a generous amount of paradoxes.

If you sense just a little bit of resentment in this introduction, you won’t be far from the truth. Part of my special program was to be put in a situation where there is contradicting beliefs and a generous amount of paradoxes.

Last night, I planned to rise up early out of bed, go to the gazebo in my yard, start on the 5 000 word translation,  translate also a poem, while I snuggle with little Avalokita from time to time (a newborn kittie that holds the power of a real tiger).

Then relatives stopped by the house and as you can guess, my plans were quickly dismantled. The elders are battling for an old house that no one currently lives in. I embraced the sudden change of plans and poured some coffee. I was hoping to see a heart-to-heart between my old grandmother and her brother.

I was hoping to see a heart-to-heart between my old grandmother and her brother. Because no matter how long I live on planet Earth, I hold idealistic expectations and they have been restored somehow after every single time reality kicked in and kicked them out.

My wonderful intention to start on a high note quickly got lost in translation. They are battling about an old house that no one lives in. I embraced the sudden change, poured coffee and was hoping to see a heart-to-heart of my old grandmother and her brother.

They started arguing for the ownership of an old house that no one lives in. I had dreamed about it a couple of days ago. I embraced the sudden change, poured us some coffee and was hoping … to see a heart-to-heart of my old grandmother and her brother. Little did I know, within minutes, they would begin a heated discussion of private properties that they haven’t dealt with for the last twenty years.

My grandma’s opponent didn’t care that much.

These are my last days anyway, he said.

There is no such conflict in my mind.

When my friend got a dog the other day, she sent me a photo and the simple message saying: “She’s all Mine.” She seemed relieved somehow. But what do you need to be relieved of? What?

Your cat or dog is not your cat or dog, my friend. Our house is not your house, your shoes are not your shoes, even if you paid for them with the last cent you own.  They are simply – a house, a pair of shoes.

The cat and the dog are your tiny little brothers and sisters, they carry life like any other living Soul here. You cannot possess a living being. You cannot possesses a material good either even if it says so on the paper.

People waste their precious energy all the time trying to solve material issues that don’t actually exist. I don’t have to imagine John Lennon’s verses to be true. I understand they are. Society forgot they are true. So, instead of dealing what our Souls need, we are dealing with things that don’t really exist.

Like ownership. Private properties are a complete joke if you ask me. So, instead of dealing with the Soul, Spirit & all that is Divine and inherently true, we are dealing with things that aren’t real, that doesn’t leave a single value in our consciousness.

So our consciousness becomes mostly occupied by material wants and needs. This is the shortest path that spirals down is losing yourself into the illusions which create the world of possessions, of inquiring and wanting more of everything.

Solitude? Absence? What lack is it that desperately needs Her? You are a caretaker and she’s your companion. But she’s not yours. There is no ownership here.

Our bodies are not our bodies! Why do we suffer when someone lets go of their body and wishes to go home? Is it ignorance, or selfishness, or illusions that keep is in this loop of misunderstanding.

I realize I’m not sharing a profound truth here. It’s all been written, it’s all been discovered, so at best – this is just a reminder to return to feeling lighter.

We have been heavily overloaded with so many possessions. Just take a look at the huge sales, the noisy world out there, the competition, the goal-setting where the money comes first and the man comes nowhere. Such a karmic race.

Why are we so desperate into acquiring anything? Why is it so scary to live without possessions? It’s not. It’s liberating, my friend! You suffer less, enjoy more and find bliss easily because bliss is not a long way there, it’s over here.

Once you stop paying attention to the wrong things…this happens.

I know we need a roof over our heads, clothes on our back, water, food. I’m not saying we should live without our basic needs. I’m not urging a hippie movement either. But do you realize how many are frantically over-satisfying their “needs”?

I’m not saying we should live without our basic needs. There is a slight difference between making use of all these things and clinging to them, be ready to fight with the fellow man, with those that need a kind word rather than being pushed aside for a property or a comfortable position.

I am positive you understand this. Any person with consciousness would understand. And yet, so many of us fall into the wrong pattern, we accept it as if it’s the outside world that governs us and we obey, we become slaves of what others believe.

But if their beliefs were so good, wouldn’t they be in a better place? Wouldn’t they be lighter, fulfilled and grateful?

When we leave this place, we will leave everything behind and we should not feel sorry for a single piece of possessions. 

Take care of your words, feelings, your heart, your mind, and Soul. And if you accomplish all of this, everything else will fall into place, but you won’t have lost your dignity and value over a piece of anything.

It saddens me to see that the house ends up owning the owner. Can’t you see, we are just transiting? The vastness of this Universe awaits us and we need to be gentle if we want to end up in a loving place.

Leave all violence behind.

The violence of acquiring anything is too, a type of violence.

If you receive a gift, then receive it with dignity, grace and with the desire to give back, to share, to love.

We never gain anything, we never lose anything. Nothing was ours in the first place. How can we lose or gain then? It’s true even with break-ups. What are you suffering from? It didn’t happen the way you planned and projected it. And our plans will fail every single time.

There is just one force in this world, in all words.

It gives and it takes away.

Why not be thankful for it?

Why do we deliberately lose the freedom we’ve been given?

Who do we complain to about our suffering but ourselves? 

Why do we forget our real home, our real origin?

Why do we teach kids how to be successful and we never mention there is a Soul,

a journey they are on?

Be happy when you lose, my friend.

I know I am celebrating every single time I lose.

I used to cry over failures until I finally understood,

I am given a much higher direction and what is perceived as a loss by someone, is a great, great gift to my Soul. 

It’s a precious gift: to know how to “lose’ is to know how to find your way back Home.

  • AVALOKITA means the one who sees clearly, with the eyes of Truth, with compassion

Much Love, 

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